So I had this dream right, I was offered this job and it was amazing. A dream job, no, a career. Everything about it was beautiful. The building, the office, the people, it was all beautiful. It wasn't in say, maybe, my exact chosen field (like I have a chosen field...I crack myself up) per say, but it was still a very highly respectable position. Definitely a move up. We never discussed money but I knew it would be lucrative. It was like 98% perfect. It would been 100% if it wasn't such a large company, in my mind, anyways. I just felt like with it being so popular and publicly known, it could not possibly give me the same sense of accomplishment and fulfillment as my last position. Just by sheer coincidence , my boss from my last job emailed me, while I was thinking over whether I was to take the job offer or not. Anyways, the email was just , the regular, hi, how are you ,etc. The thing is this, I knew they were actually writing me because they wanted me to come back. I had quit the job because it was unsteady (like sometime there would be no business..hence, no work) but it was my job and I knew the person who is doing the job now could not be doing it as well as me. Almost impossible ( I like the way that word looks...impossible. ) because I virtually created the position as I went along. I built it and I seemed to have some feeling of attachment to it or something. But I knew it couldn't go back. I missed the job but how could I go back and I am getting offered the types of careers I am currently being offered?? It was a step backwards, But, how could I take this job where I wasn't even sure that my new boss would ever know that I am a big big Giants fan, not a morning person (especially Mondays) , and I worked better when I am challenged ?? My old boss knew. (Only in my dreams...smh)
What does it all mean and how could I even be questioning such things in such an economy??..I guess I don't dream in recession. Meanings, meanings, who's got a meaning...most things don't mean what they are supposed to mean anyways. You know what I mean???
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