What Im thinking right now....

I had a good cry today. I am not ashamed to say this because while you would probably feel weakened by this, it actually ended with me feeling empowered because I am not afraid to feel. Something happened that made me remember something and that made me feel some way and I needed a release, so I let my soul release. It needed it, I needed it and it ended with me blasting Bic Runga - "Sorry" (It's not about what you probably think lol) and remembering, it's just another one of those feelings in the wonderful spectrum of life. I need moments like that from time to time so I can appreciate my overall happiness and overall, I am actually kinda happy. ( a '72 Nova would make me a lot more happy...hint, hint ) I don't deny that I probably don't exist in the same reality as most, and there are obvious benefits I realize that I have probably been missing out on because I mostly chose to live as an outlaw of sorts (or so I fancy myself..), I have got to tell you, I wish you could live one day in my mind. The range of emotions is incredible and being comfortable enough with yourself to let you experience and explore all of them...it's indescribable. (even for me) It's like a movie. That may sound kinda vain and maybe its a B or even C (fuck that , I am A-List...they just don't know it.....yet), but it's my very own movie. Anything is possible, at any given moment, and nothing is guaranteed. I can manifest with my mind and I am just now starting to realiiiize that. Good News coming soooooon. Stay tuned.....