What Im thinking right now....

I've been thinking about dying and death for the past few days. I know that sounds macabre and all but I don't mean it to be. I don't plan on going anywhere for a long time but.....I am intelligent enough to know, you never really know. It's just one of those things, it is what it is and I am not afraid to talk about it and this blog would be less than honest if I didn't, because that's what's on my mind.

If I died...when I die, what will people remember? Will I have affected more people in a positive way than negative? I would like to think I don't really have enemies unless you count one or two ex girlfriends, and even then, they hate me because they love me. It all goes hand in hand. But how would I be remembered? Would people remember the good in me or would the bad far outweigh it? Who would really keep my memory alive and who would let me fade into the darkness? Who really loves me, really? Who really even knows me, again, really? Who secretly prays for my demise and will be happy I am gone? I know somewhere, someone is smiling. My photography, my work, that is my love and my life. I lived everyone of those moments and can tell you a story about each and everyone. But when I am gone, who can tell those stories? Who will know what those photos mean and be able to tell what needs to be told? Will my work be able to stand after I am gone?

In this life, control is an illusion. A pretty crafty one, at that. That said, get it right today. We all live thinking we have more time to do whatever it is we need to, but the truth is, it's an illusion and you really have no control over when your time is up. It could be up today so make sure you get it right. Live, Learn, and, Love.